Disability and Dating: How to Find Love While Being True to Yourself

On tonight’s all new episode of ABC’s Speechless, the entire DiMeo family helps JJ romance a girl at school.  Our own Erin Hawley explains that finding the right partner isn’t easy, and it can be especially hard when you have a disability.  Still, that’s no reason to give up! Watch the episode at 8:30|7:30c on ABC. 

By: Erin Hawley

Finding a partner can be difficult for anyone, but for people with disabilities, there are extra barriers in place. Many believe the biggest barriers stem from society’s often-skewed views of our capabilities and what it means to be disabled. The stereotype is one of loneliness; we don’t even have friends, except when an abled person takes us under their wing as a charity case. Many are shocked to learn that people with disabilities have active social lives and romantic relationships, including sexual ones – gasp!

Erin and her boyfriend

Erin and her boyfriend

There are limited resources for people with disabilities when it comes to dating and relationships, including sexual and reproductive health. While all disabilities are unique, we also have a common understanding of what it’s like to navigate the world as a person with a disability. To me, it’s glaringly problematic that supports for us are absent, or buried under paperwork and abandoned websites.

The unfortunate result of this, of people automatically putting you in the “undateable” category because of your bodily difference, is that you may start believing it yourself. If you’re like me, you might begin to internalize the negative expectations that some doctors, teachers, parents, and others project onto you. I’m not going to lie – undoing that internalized ableism and recognizing your own ability to find love is difficult; but for me, that confidence was necessary.

Finding someone who doesn’t instantly write you off is like searching for the Holy Grail. Even on dating sites geared specifically toward people with disabilities, that baggage from always being told we were less than our abled peers clouds our relationships with each other. That baggage is so heavy that it even follows you long after you enter a relationship.

But I took charge of my love life. I recognized those negative thoughts that told me no one would find me desirable; I let them pass through me, and pressed on steadfastly. I made dating profiles, I chatted with tons of guys – many who fell off the face of the earth when they realized how disabled I was. I wasn’t a model who just happened to sit down a lot. I need specific medical care, help with bathroom stuff, assistance dressing, eating, and keeping my airway open. I sit sideways from scoliosis and have frequent back pain. My limbs are contracted, so I have limited range of motion.

People found me physically attractive all the time (because I am gorgeous and photograph damn well), but they didn’t want to “deal” with the other stuff. I could write a book about all the creepy, negative e-mails I’ve received while dating – everything from first messages of “hi, can you have sex?” or “will you let me take care of you?” to “Sorry, I’m not interested. You should go on a dating site for your kind.” If you are disabled and just venturing into the online dating world, expect this – a lot. Or expect a low response rate; honestly, I prefer that to the skeevy messages.

Cookies with "Love" spelled out in icingAt this point, you may be wondering how I found my boyfriend, since I’ve painted online dating as a barren hellscape. The truth is, he found me when I wasn’t looking. After two failed, long-term relationships and a slew of terrible dates following, I was ready for a break. I needed to find my inner peace I knew was there, that I owned. I hate that my relationships held such power over me, emotionally; so I made an effort to stop searching and focus on my mental health. “No one will love you if you don’t love yourself” always seemed like a cheesy, dismissive quote, but it wasn’t until I lost myself that I realized how true it is.

One lazy afternoon, a guy from a dating site sent me a message after recognizing me in a Twitter chat about tabletop gaming. Two weeks go by, and we have our first date. Fast-forward almost two years later, and here we are in a healthy relationship based on mutual respect, honesty, support, and understanding. My disability is an integral part of my identity, and he accepts and loves that about me, as I accept and love him.

Dating is treacherous. It makes you feel vulnerable, and constantly tests your inner strength. You will get your heart broken in ways you never thought possible (or you could be the luckiest person ever – in which case, rock on). Remember to love yourself first, because that love is something they can’t take away from you. And if you ever feel like no one would want to date you because of your disabilities, silence that beast – it’s lying.


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  1. Beth Finke Says:

    Thank you for reaching out to us, Nathan. I will forward your phone number on to Easter Seals Information and Referral Services. They will get back to you soon with information about Easterseals affiliates that may be able to help.

  2. Nathan E Horn Says:

    Have MS & looking for housing, etc. email is down so phone is best @ contacting me.

    Nathan Horn
    313 732 7799

    Thank you 😊

  3. Beth Finke Says:

    Right on, Erin!

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